so stuck on all their songs now, they're so so good. curse of curves is my favourite! thanks loads sher.

plain sunset gig this coming week, something to look forward to.

its so nice to talk to debbie again. i havent talked to her in..so long man. i like how we always tell each other all our stories(: and we've got such good memory, so we never forget. hope ngee and poly is treating you well, i love debbie panda(:

Friday, August 18, 2006

you technicolor whirlwind.

if the world would fall apart
in a fiction worthy wind


i wouldnt change a thing
now
that
you're
here.







you know?


i dont know why, i dont know what but.


im gonna talk to you about the modelling thing again




and if you still dont want me to do it


i wont, okay?



dont know what was wrong with me that time but right now the decision suddenly seems so clear.

|sonya bee| 1:22 PM|

besteresteresteresteresteresterest CRAZIE CUZZZZ MISS YOU LOADScos i havent seen you in a whole day!

ohhoho, emo nemo.
a bus ride in pareeeeeeeeee(: paris i mean.
i cant remember this!
i found this picture, i have no idea when we took it cos WE BOTH LOOK SO YOUNG. i think its at one of our trainings in ngee ann! RAZE AND RAZY(:
(i look so funny?) nana, i love you so so much, thank you for listening to a lot of boring shit coming from me. you're the greatestestest! <3

happy belated bday katz(: such a coincidence i ran into you yesterday!
HAHA WHAT AN UNFLATTERING PICTURE but its quite funny so. anyway chinaman sorry i couldnt come down today, cos it raze and razy's day off(: so i'll be at home working my sick ass off. (ahem.)

SO CUTE. its a potato! (belle!) yes, helllo chinaman. thanks for tuesday sorry im made you walk so much sorry we got lost and sorry our stuff almost got stolen! and thank you, as usual, for the awesome company(: and jo dear, hope i made your tuesday a little better(: and why are there 3 freaking ming teck parks on sixth avenue!
just felt like some old random pictures.


and we all have teeth that can bite underneath
to where the reality grows.


her bone structure screams "touch her touch her".
i've got the gift of one liners
and you've got the curse of curves.





i'm selfish as selfish comes-
YOU'RE GIVING ME A RUN FOR MY MONEY.




i dont know if it was a dream, maybe a nightmare. but it brought back everything of the past months that i had fought so hard to forget. and you know the sad thing? i know im the only one holding this together. if i had taken what you said a little harder i wouldnt be talking to you. but if i went, i cant even be sure that you would have come after me. not cos you dont care, i know you do. but its just that you dont do that sort of thing..its just you. sigh its stupid thinking about this really. i should trust you more, you're one of the people i would trust my life with. (hur really?) anyway i mean that you're one of the most important people in my life.

and i really want you to come on the 30th.. sigh was talking to lianny about it. but ah well its up to you.
we'll see.





if you find yourself here on my side of town i'd pray that you'd come to my door talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about cause I don't remember anymore I just know that she warms my heart and knows where all my imperfections are



and she said that I was the brightest little firefly in her jar.







<3

|sonya bee| 12:22 PM|

Thursday, August 10, 2006

krunk's been shifted to MUSICAL FOUNTAIN??? WTH? who wants to model where they have zoo shows? (okay they dont but it looks like part of the zoo). yeah lah so hot right, we can model and throw water from the fountain on ourselves. -.- god thats so gay
shit i have to rethink my decision!

|sonya bee| 8:28 PM|

i'm the new cancer never looked better and YOU CANT STAND IT.

Meeting suu on tues really made me think about last year. miss it so:(


haha this isnt relevant but its such a cute photo. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU GRANDPANTIES??
son+mon+suu.
(:
some pics from last year.. i miss i miss.

cos you say so under your breath,

your bleeding lips

WHEN DID HE GET ALL CONFIDENT?


falafel/.hoho?

tuesday was a good day because i got to see MISS BIBI(: oh man i didnt realize how much i missed her until i saw this hunched back ah pek walking up blackmore drive with the grin on her face like this- :D ahahha.my dear ahpek(: we went up to the mg roof and sat on the really high box like thing, had a hard time getting up. then we tanned(: like we always used to say. haha she even brought her tanning oil and my legs got really red. we talked and talked and talked and i was in such a good mood after that? i think what you said was really true. Even tho we dont talk as often anymore, i still feel like you're my close friend. i guess its an ahpek thing(: we were able to talk and just pick up where we left off, you know? yeah. thanks for everything suu(: and we took lots of photos in the 4th floor toilet just like last year. send me soon k! kinda sad we didnt get to see mon, she had to perform some dance in school.HAHA. oh man, i miss last year. love you suu(:
you're just the best i ever had.

bibi and baba<3

walked to kap with suu after that to meet jo, got a really irritating call from my mum/dad. jo i hope now you understand why i prefer not to inform them of my whereabouts. STUDYING ALSO WANT TO SCOLD.aiyou

anyway spent the afternoon there trying to study with jo, altho i really CANT STAND kap so i dont know why we went there but anyway. the people next to us were talking so freaking loudly and we were sitting under some blaring speaker. met nat there hello nat(: dont look so stressed(: anyway for the 4 or so hours that we sat there i didnt do anything at all? at least jo made some notes. and she slept for quite a while. i dont know if she intended to but she did. we're damn champion. i bet you're sleeping now!! STUDY YOUR ECONS DAMMIT DONT COME AND CRY TO ME WHEN YOU DONT GET PROMOTED. hahaha kidding<3

anyway big hellos to..

SHER : GERRLX euu watch eur chinese show den euu cry n cry n cry den all eur tears fall n fal n fal until got flood. hahahahHELLO SHER I MISS YOU(:

LIANY CUZ: cuzz i miss you..so sorry we couldnt meet up today but i get to see you early in the morning tmr(: love you so much and i miss you cos i havent seen you in DAMN long.. like. 2 days!!

DAH: dear monks lets have a talk soon<3

ELF: hello dearest.. dont get too freaked out by it okay? anyway lets just focus on it now and we'll get through this together. lets study together and we'll make sure we do well(: love you.






on another note..something i was thinking about.




you know you make me smile inside? more like grin. being with you makes me forget all the things i always pray so hard to forget on normal days. but you take it away like..magic.



do you know?



there's something about the look in your eyes

something i noticed when the light was just right.

it reminded me twice that i was alive
and it reminded me that

you're so worth the fight.

I guess this is how it is when you love someone. I know, i am too inexperienced to know what love is, i havent been out that much to know yet. that takes years but this..this is definitely something different. I guess this is what you do when you love someone..
you give them chance
after
chance
and you'll never give up on them

even if it means you getting hurt
over
and
over
again.


because you know that this is just so much more.



could you show me dear

something
infinitely
interesting.



i can just spend the whole day watching you, you know that? it never fails to amaze me, how someone can be so beautiful both inside and out.

and i still thank God for you, every single day.

ohmygod. thinking about this and listening to echo? i cant believe it, but..my nose is stinging and my throat feels tight.




i didnt want to let go of your hand, you know(:



and i forgot to give you something when we said goodbye:( but i'll save it for next time.









OHMIIGAWWDDD I AMMM SUCCHHH A HOPELESS ROMANTIC

|sonya bee| 7:07 PM|

Thursday, August 03, 2006

well i went to my blog and kinda got a shock cos it was all black. haha jo never tells me when she's changing my template. tho its not really something i'd put, thanks(:

i dont really want to talk about today

turd-thanks for everything, and the great company. thanks so much(: CHINADUDE AND SONYAMAN(:

school today was..sigh.

hello you. you you you.DO YOU KNOW I ALMOST GOT KNOCKED DOWN BY A CAR, RUNNING AFTER YOU??
outside guthrie's.im not kidding. i was so bent on talking to you before you left but i had no idea where you went so i was just running around like a mad woman then i almost got knocked down.but i caught you in time(: cant wait for tues(: but i dont know why you came. and left.without even saying much..






and i'll say something else
at that moment
when i was searching for something to say, was it a sorry?

do you know that my hands were shaking? as in. really. they were. i dont know why.

|sonya bee| 11:00 PM|

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

today is random thoughts day,i cant think straight no more. let me number the points


1. www.youthempire.com


haha go check it out(: kerry winner and i are doing this thing for krunk, modelling for new urban male and buttcheeks. sounds pretty coolio so come down yup! get this: male models are from selected water polo, swim and rugby teams. ARAGHRGAHRGAHR hotstuff<3


2. hahhaa.mandy's posessed by shrimoyee. IM SORRY RAZY BUT YOU ARE


3. someone's not talking to me.and i dont know what she's doing in pulau tekong. i miss you.

4.CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR<3 color="#ff0000" size="5">thank you and i love you to: turd mr chinaman and sher chewy.


thank you so much guys, you know im on about so i wont explain. you're the greatestest*:



6. oh goodness, my mind has slipped

and wiped you away from it<3

7. i really miss sulin and mon i hope our going out works out next week lets go to the rooftop and tan<3>
bibi&baba<3
mon and son<3
the ONs<3

8. you know.in sec one i used to hang out with ama yana and sheena all the time.they left.i also hung out with tabby a lot, like all the time.she left.in sec 2 my besties were mon and suu.they left.

THATS NOT FUNNY



9.
} Tarnish says:
and i will listen to everything you need to say
} Tarnish says:
and even if you dont need to say antyhing
} Tarnish says:
i will sit there with you in silence
} Tarnish says:
(:


i love my potato to death. i never met anyone who i could actually call my bestie without hesitating or saying "most of the time anyway" or "sometimes" except for you my potato(:

i love you so so much.


i thank God for you everyday, you know bestie?
what would i do without you.

http://lisabelletay.blogspot.com

potato wrote this poem on laksa
potato YOU'RE AMAZING
you make laksa sound so sexy
hahhaa
loveloveyou(:

10. im really thankful for my friends.my real friends. wow. im blessed you know? they're fun. and funny. and crazy and nice and a few of them are always there for me
what more can i ask for?

11. elf i hope you liked patrick HE LOVES YOU LOTS but not more than i do. dont worry about IT okay dear we'll sort it out? cant wait for lit tmr we can talk(: with schtacee weweeexx too.

12. i need to hand in my mep essay for ca marks tmr and i havent started

13. there are these two pr2 girls Lauren and Sophie who come to my class and look for me every before school, recess and after school THEY'RE SO CUTE i want to take them home
although I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE
hahahha
they just came up to me one day and went 'are you sonya?' and gave me a hug
sweet.

14. THANK youchinaman its a pretty thing (:

15.

Restitch my ripped jeans
And take the old ones
Take the old ones out back
Sew them tight at the seams please
I've got so many ripped knees

Im selfish as selfish as comes

Youre giving me a run for my money

Honey<3

|sonya bee| 10:18 PM|

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

and im thinking im needing some life-saving prozac.

so is this your grand goodbye?

take all of me, make me cry.


you give up on me so easy

can you blame me for calling the world unjust


i forgive you for not knowing how to treat me
for really treating me like shit
and for plain being mean


and you're the one giving up on me.




the irony doesnt strike you, no?
you've hurt me so many times i cant even bloody count

but everytime i tell myself, im not gonna give up on you
cos i know there's so much more to you


and now.
"yup i am"
and no goodnight, even.
and you're not gonna be here tomorrow

right?






am i hoping for too much, you think.

|sonya bee| 11:25 PM|

why is everyone telling me that i'm so stupid for telling you??
i didnt want to at first
i knew this would happen


but after we had a talk the other day

i realize how much i want to be honest with you, about anything, everything.


and i realized the last thing i would want to do is hide it from you




but it's so hard to make you see.



i dont know what's gonna happen now

but i dont regret telling you.. because i respect what you think.



i have SO many feelings about this
but nothing to say

i dont know what to say:(


are you giving up on me?



it starts eyes closed,
to fingers crossed



to i swear, i say.

|sonya bee| 10:57 PM|